I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again: I am a writer! That sentence exhilarates, validates and terrifies me all at the same time. I don’t know why it’s so difficult for me to say it, but it is. I’ve even been published, but I still have a difficult time declaring “I am a writer!” My husband recognizes that I am a writer! I’m writing, or thinking about writing, all the time. Why then is it so difficult to admit it to myself?
What are some hindrances you deal with in walking out your calling? Here are mine:
Writing Can Be a “Heady” Endeavor (PRIDE)
According to Dictionary.com, the word “heady” means potent, intoxicating; having a strong or exhilarating effect. I would be lying if I said I didn’t like it when people enjoyed, were moved by or acted upon something I wrote. It’s just there! I cannot deny it. I also know that it is God who gives good gifts and talents to His children for HIS glory — not ours. He will not share His glory with anyone EVER! Anything good in my life is a direct result of what He’s done or is doing! How could I take any credit!?
James 4:6 says, “God shows favor to the humble but opposes the proud.” Whoa! Read that again! Do I really want God opposing me? Imagine being on the scrimmage line in a football game only to look up and see God playing for the opposite team! That right there instills a healthy dose of fear (reverence) in me! “Lord, keep me humble!” It also says in 1 Peter 5:5-6, “All of you, clothe yourselves with humility toward one another, because, ‘God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble.’ Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.” Clothing ourselves in humility is something WE do! May I never try to grasp God’s glory in any way, form, or fashion.
There are Better and More Qualified Writers Than I Am (PRIDE)
When I sit down to write, I am bombarded with the idea that there are people more qualified than I am in writing on any given particular topic. It is a form of “writer’s block” that I have to battle again and again. I am a work in progress to be sure! There is someone who is farther down the road in life who has more experience and more wisdom. This is a form of pride as well. It is still focused on ME!
The beauty of being a writer lies in the fact that we are all uniquely given ways to express Who God is through our lives to others. No two people are exactly the same in every way. I am a unique expression of Who God is with how He made me, what I’ve gone through in my life, the husband I have, the children I’ve been given, etc. I am uniquely qualified to declare to the world Who God is and What He can do. And so are you!
I Have a Difficult Time Putting Myself Out There (PRIDE)
This is a very uncomfortable thing for me to do! With that said, there is a fine line between pridefully promoting myself and walking in confidence in what God’s called me to do. Confidence sometimes looks like pride, and I guess sometimes pride can mask itself as confidence. It’s all a matter of the heart! That’s why I need to maintain a close, unhindered fellowship with Him.
Who cares what people think about me!? All that matters is He is pleased with me. Hebrews 4:12 says, “For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.” As I stay in the Word, it will discern between my soul and my spirit. It will judge the thoughts and attitudes of my heart. I welcome this with open arms! I welcome the Holy Spirit’s gentle correction.
I Don’t Have It All Together (PRIDE)
I don’t know it all, nor do I have it all together! Many of you are saying to yourselves, “Duh!” Matter of fact, as I contemplate this point, the chatter in my head is all about my failures, my sinfulness and my inadequacies. It sometimes feels like I need to be an expert at what I am writing, but truly I have not arrived. Like I said before, I am a work in progress. I simply want to encourage others and make much of Jesus and Who He is. That doesn’t mean because I am writing that I know more or am somehow a better person. It just means I am sharing my journey in the hopes of helping you discover Who Jesus is on your journey.
So, I guess in writing this little piece about being a writer has helped me to see that PRIDE is what keeps me from comfortably saying “I am a writer!” Pride is always nipping at my heels, but He’s given the antidote to pride. It is HUMILITY!
In His Grip,