In a few short weeks, Giff and I will be celebrating our wedding anniversary! It’s not necessarily a significant one, but each year is a milestone and a contradiction to what society says about marriages today. In the past, we have:
- endured multiple job losses.
- struggled financially.
- dealt with my husband’s struggle with pornography.
- had premature twins as our firstborns.
- been startled from sleep by a false apnea (not breathing) going off in the middle of the night.
- received the news that one of sons (Andrew) had PVL (periventricular leukomalacia, cerebral palsy and subsequently diagnosed as mentally handicapped. (He has also been diagnosed with autism.)
- dealt with, and still are dealing with, his behavioral issues (feeling isolated at times because of these).
- had a miscarriage (probably our little girl (Alexandria Nicole), but we’ll never know this side of heaven).
- had a difficult pregnancy four weeks after the miscarriage and wondered if we were going to lose that baby as well.
- walked through postpartum depression. Giff assured me he could handle it because “God made his shoulders bigger for a reason.”
- endured the painful separation and subsequent divorce of Giff’s parents
- felt helpless as our 2-week-old son was taken into surgery to save his life by removing a portion of his perforated, diseased bowel.
- stepped out in faith to start our business full time as there were no job leads anywhere else.
These are the stones we could have stumbled over. There are the ones that could have caused our marriage to be tripped up by the enemy. Instead, they are the very stones we carry across our “River Jordan” as a memorial of how faithful God is in our everyday lives.
Giff, I love you more today than I did before. I thank God that what we’ve endured has made us stronger and closer. We may not have it all together; but when we’re together, we have it all!!!
I am encouraged in my dreams as a writer because of you! You believe in my gifts more than I do at times. Thank you for supporting me in my endeavors to be who God created me to be. I am a blessed woman! I’ve laughed, smiled contentedly, sighed, cried heaving sobs, and in spite of everything you have loved me through it all! I look forward to the next year and all that God has in store for us! May this be a year of newness! May this year draw us closer to the Lord and to each other even more.
I love you with all my heart, Giff! I have always wanted a marriage that was more than just two people who fell in love and lived happily ever after with 2.5 kids and a white picket fence. And…..we got it! As we are living this crazy life of ours to the fullest to the best we know how, we are leaving a legacy and a heritage for our sons. Hopefully, they will be talking about our marriage and what it meant to them to their children and to their children’s children.